There have been people in my life; who have hurt me and caused me real pain. But from where I stand now, I realize that those pains were milestones in my life and were turning points. I succeeded in relieving my negative feelings towards some of them and I am working on the rest too. I dream of a day when I hold no bit of negative feelings towards any creature on earth.
Negative feelings do not affect others they affect us. They are like corrosive actions. They corrode our souls, our spirits, and our faith in others as well as how we see ourselves and our life.
Letting our negative feelings grow inside us is a self corrosive mechanism by which we turn our whole life to hell and prevent ourselves from really enjoying who we are and the good things that life is bringing to us.
We are not as rigid as we think we are. We are not as we were one minute ago. We have control over who we are, what we want to do and who we really want to be. This is a lesson I have learned.
Every event in my life led to the other. I do my duty to myself. I analyze the event. I try to understand what happened, search for knowledge or information, clues for why. I question myself what I have done? What was wrong? What was right? Sometimes I was self defeated, sometimes it took longer by far than I expected.
Long times I suffered from the feeling of being hurt, not as appreciated as I needed or as I dreamed of , not finding my dreams come true. On the other hand, I was always surrounded by supporting groups of loving, caring people. By them I was given a sense of direction.
Instead of focusing on myself, my pains, what I lack, I chose completely to concentrate on others. I chose to grow my circle of friends and support groups. I chose to fully tune in to them, understand their needs, help them be better and achieve what they are looking for in their lives. I don't want anyone to experience the same suffering. But I am not responsible for them either.
So I came to better Understanding day by day through the coaching profession.
Now, it is clearer to me since the day I took the decision to choose what I do and what I want to be. Not from a selfish perspective, but from a loving one. I take in consideration myself, my family, my friends and others. I do not harm, offend or take revenge. I choose to take responsibility of my life. NEVER do I blame anybody for any event in my life. I am the only responsible person I know who can affect my life path.
MY happiness starts within myself. It does not depend on others. If I want to be loved, I have to start by loving myself first, appreciating myself too (without being in vain, arrogant or selfish and at the same time never to under-estimate my capabilities, power and positive traits).
I just accept and appreciate myself as I am.I am sometimes stubborn, blinded with emotions, over sensitive but that is part of who I am and the good news is I am A HUMAN BEING.
Knowing that helps me improve myself and I am committed to improving myself till I physically do not exist any more but morally I will exist in every person whom I have listened to, helped, supported or taught something. |
